an extra entry -- 12:10 PM; Monday, February 28, 2005
haiz... toking abt which school to go.. im totally farked up...
im a person hu cant let go of things easily.... thinkin of leaving the frens i made in IJC.. wohz.. PISSED me off... dammit!! i just cant let go!! haiz.. now im oso in de midst of making a decision between poly or IJC... its either i pursue a course of my choice (which i dunno whether im making a rite choice) in poly or study for A levels in IJC... haiz...

wah laoz... how i wished all of my current classmates are staying... then i wud not be having this headache now... im afraid i cudn't continue the way i am as i did during the first three months... frankly speaking... i HATE studying.. but hu LIKES studying.. NO ONE... i oso nv wanted to get into a university..!! i fear that i cudn't pass my A levels.. currently.. im struggling wif physics.. that stupid tutor.. dun lyk him.. always use double math as a reason not to explain a problem... grr... but hu cares... hope he gets changed away...

haiz... my decision oso depends on my frens.. i hope they are staying too!! if they are not.. i dun think i wanna stay either...

SIGH!!!!!!!~~ wtf... y do i hafta make such choices!!!

+TrOubLeD+

haiz.. the race was ok laz.. i was the last in my team AGAIN... but nvm... last nite went to sentosa wif my classmates.. wohz... the same six hu pon GP lessons... the rest din appear though they sae they will come in de morning... so last nite we were there.. and before setting up our tents.. we watched the musical fountain... wohz.. its AMAZING.. LoL... after that miss yap came too.. but she brought someone along... a teacher oso.. but teaching in primary school.. oh wow... the two of them do tok wif a similar pattern... they talk very slowly... LoL... u can feel that they are so similar... so we talked and joked and eat and walk.. and we went to explore some haunted house... i think.. i'll drop this subject.. its not my forte...

so when we came back.. it was arnd 12 plus i think... but miss yap n her fren hafta go liaoz... den we sat down there chatting playing cards... wohz.. i was so hyperactive.. i cudn't sleep at all.. LoL... so i disturbed nicholas.. hoping he wun fall asleep... LoL.. there were no stars last nite.. the clouds covered all of them.. *pathetic*

it was real early in de morning where pei han sae wan go watch sun rise.. but.. no sun was seen.. LoL.. the sky became bright suddenly.. LoL.. so i pei han n yvette took the volleyball and went to play... after that went for breakfast... after that all of us played volleyball... n irene got forfeited... i think the details here ought to be ommited.. i wudn't want to be reminded of some things... hmmmz.. but irene left early.. as she was tired... so left the 5 of us.. so they went to see the house again.. but i din enter.. i wudn't want to... when they came back..we packed our stuff and left.. to have lunch... and den HOME...

took a cab home.. so tired lehz... n bag is so heavy leh.. so when i reached home... there i lay flat on my bed... just woke up and update my blog... well the whole trip was rather.. entertainin.. n sian oso lahz..

oh.. today i was so... F*CKed up... i thot of tmr.. going to recieve our results... and i was like.. dammit... i dun even noe where to go.. i cant bear to leave ij... and i wan to take up hotel management... but i was oso in doubt whether i made the rite choice if i were to take up hotel management... haiz.. forget it... huiyin keep telling me recieve result liao den sae... BUT.. how can i decide...?!! haiz.. dunno hus gonna stay n hus gonna leave... hope everyone stays.. INCLUDING that martian.. although i despise him n pity him at the same time... someone!! pls!! TELL ME WHERE TO GO!!

bcos of this.. MY LIFE REALLY SUCKED!!
_TroUbLeD_

what a morning.... -- 2:00 AM; Sunday, February 27, 2005
*YAWNZ* just had breakfast... today is the competition... hohoho.. scary... din run before... -_-.. i guess.. everybody have their first time... but i prefer to avoid it... -_-... if i come in the last few.. it wud be a disgrace to the school.. as well as me, myself... so embarrassing if i were to come in last... oh yea.. i was hopin it to pass very quickly.. so i can get to sentosa and meet my frenz... wahahahaaz... excited about staying over at sentosa oso.. cos.. it's like the first time "camping" at sentosa... LoL... hope it doesn't rain at nite..!!

hmmmmz... it's been two months.. since the Tsunami took place... damn.. i was so cursed.... it took place on my birthday and i was enjoying myself on that day... jeeez... felt so bad... well.. felt sorry for those who have lost their loved ones... BUT!! this is a lesson to be learnt.. to cherish wad u haf b4 u.. and dun lose it until it loses u... losing a loved one is a part of life.. it comes in a cycle.. no one lives forever u know...

haiz.. end here le lahz.. i dunno wad to add oso.. mayb tomorrow.. i will den add longer entries...
hafta say this before i go...
my LIFE simply sucks....
«''-LosT-''»

ARGH!!! -- 2:30 PM; Saturday, February 26, 2005
FINALLY!! today.. i got home early... wahahahhahaaz... since school starts.. i nv went home b4 4pm!! hahahaz.. and today i did.. cos no haf training.. if haf i oso hafta go home... got theory exam... it's sumthing like a prelimnary round before the real one comes... so i finished early.. and went to meet shaun early to get the tents.. so that tmr.. when go sentosa.. got a shelter..

wohz.. tmr competition.. haiz.. very scared.. first time running.. and i was like.. din train much oso.. and i was just somebody to fill in the team of six.. so.. i dun play a important role.. LoL.. but.. hope can run faster than he rest la.. LoL.. hu doesn't want that...

oh.. today din really haf lessons... our teachers and us had a talk for a whole day.. taking photos.. and having fuN! LoL... our chinese teacher treated us to drinks.. and chatted over the break. den we went late for maths.. n miss yap oso ended up talking to us.. hahahaz.. and take photo.. and play... geez.. its fun in this class.. but we're like seperating soon... and i cant bear to leave either... :'( haiz... good things hafta come to an end.. geez.. results are coming out oso.. its like 2 more days.. im so fearful abt it oso... i fear for my english.. hopin to pass....

oh yea.. so wad if i get the results early.. i havent made my decision yet!!!!! haiz.... its like very hard to choose lorz... i dunno where to go now... i really dunno.. haiz... i stop here laz.. my head's killin me...

haiz.. honestly.. my LIFE simply sucks...

-LosT-

good morning everyone! -- 10:20 PM; Friday, February 25, 2005
so tired again.. slept at 12+ last nite... -_- today im just like a panda... with two black eyes... O.O
anyway.. the Os result are coming out!! im so scared and anxious... last nite din really sleep well bcos of that... -_-... haiz... hope can score 12 points... with 4 A1s.. damn... i hope my english gets a B.. and not a C... oh well..

tomorrow im having a competition.. woh.. for the first time leh! hahahaz.. excited plus scared... dunno how well will i do.. will i come in last? LoL... i was put into the team just to fill the sixth place... our cca not enough pple in it... too bad for me.. i hope my mental strength can last me throughout the run... o.O... geeez... its gonna be tough... =(.. what ever...

i was thinking whether i shud upload some pics... but my fren told me it wasn't safe to.. cos.. pple will upload ur pic somewhere else... LoL... geez.. mayb i shud not... LoL.. but.. nevermind...

hafta go school liaoz.. can't afford to be late today...
BYE!!~

-my LIFE simply sucks-

hahahaz.. today pon school.. but.. not really pon la... is i late.. my classmates call me go school.. den i just go lorz.. LoL... den no need write letter liaoz.. geez... reach school at 4++ hahahaz... just nice for PE lesson.. wth.. very few pple in school today leh!!! den reach school tell me no vball training.. wa laoz... had i known earlier dun go school lorz.. LoL.. but nvm la... still have the trainin held by us students... LoL.. enthu rite.. hahahaz... but anyway... the same thing.. we went for dinner.. oni 3 boys oni.. the other one left.. so the three of us sat there and talked for around 1 hour... wohz... and i left there at 9.45... so late sehz...

ai ya.. today very lazy to blog.. LoL.. i go slp la...
but still hafta say... my LIFE simply sucks...

-NitE evEryonE!-
-LosT-

title-less entry -- 1:10 PM; Thursday, February 24, 2005
hoho... another day gone just like tat.. LoL... anyway.. miss yap( f math teacher and civics tutor) thot i was not happy.. hahaz... in fact.. i wasn't unhappy... i was tired and wanted to slp in class... well.. bcos she teased me then she thot i was angry... LoL.. so she sms-ed me to apologise.. well.. she told me she felt bad.. ( i sent her a wrong signal... bcos of my SIAN face.. LoL.. )

oh ya... today's school was fun!! oni had chinese and C & F maths lesson.. hahahahahahaha!! f math.. my favouriite subject.. and of course i'm always having fun during maths lesson... LoL... wad we did during chinese lesson today was quite lame... hahaa.. we had tea session among ourselves.. and talking about the cultures and history of TEA.. of course i got to enjoy myself.. we're listening to a song.. called.. ye ye pao de cha.. by jay chou ( Tea brewed by grandpa ) in order to answer a qn on the meaning of some lyrics in the song... and we are able to drink different types of tea.. oh ya.. when the teacher left to get hot water... we looked at some MTV.. those MTVs are so damn lame.. so funny... it's a cartoon type MTV.. there is this monk hu sang off pitch.. and showing stupid actions.. wah.. bui tahan la.. LoL.. den we got two hours of break... *unbelievable* so those wif no lesson during that time went to play table tennis.. haha... Mr Ma Zhou ( the other F math teacher), came to play with us.. LoL.. woh.. our pro players... (yvette and wen jin) challenged him.. hahah... they lost... Mr Ma was saying he's de champ.. -_-

after school... i went for my cca (not in my school)... haahahz.. although its tiring but it's fun... (due to my not wide vocab for english.. fun is always being repeated... i dunno wad other word to replace it.. ) we took some photos... LAME ones.. we also had one.. where 5 of the guys... (including me) each poses like some martial arts expert... -_- oh that jalilah.. so fond of photo taking.. keep taking photos.. hahahaa.. she go be model better lah.. LoL... now my camera flooded wif her photos... haha... XD...

after that we went home.. oh.. the bus was sooooo packed...!! oh my.. there's this assh*le.. hu doesn't close his mouth when coughing.. he kept coughing ONTO my HAIR!! like c'mon lor.. its basic courtesy lo.. close ur mouth when coughing.. and yea.. these pple dun move in to the back... pls la.. pple wanna board oso rite.. then there's this grp of students moving in to the back instead of those adults.. ADULTS leh.. wah lao.. no brain issit.. no common sense ah... moving to the back very hard ah.. show some consideration lah! kaoz... i might seem very against singaporeans.. but im not! it's a fact that cant be denied that most singaporeans are inconsiderate... ( train and bus incident and this particular person ) mayb im generalising...

today was more or less an enjoyable day... but still.. i hafta say this..
my Life simply sux...

-LosT-

im so tired... -- 10:20 PM; Wednesday, February 23, 2005
slept at 12+ last nite.. and now is already six.. wohz... not enough slp.. i wanna continue sleeping!! haiz... thats the bad thing about living far away from school.. hafta wake up very early in the morning... but if im in jjc.. den i can just wake up at 7.15 and walk to school.. jjc is so near to my house... argh... but.. forget it... i dun think i wan to go to that school either.. XD...

hafta leave home for school liaoz... i'll update this at night....

but still... my LIFE simply sucks...

-LosT-

haiz... just got home from school... haiz.. so tired... actually.. today's training was not really fun... as compared to that time at toa payoh there de club.. dunno leh.. very sianz lately.. ehx... short of pple leh... wtf.. those dun wan to join the reason was.. dun wanna be iron ladies.. -_- LoL... anyway.. back to the topic... wah lao.. that damn coach like got problem wif me lidat.. dunno lah.. bu shuang wo i gues.. LoL.. dun care.. heck la he.. still sae i look like an idiot and ask me to change my style.. LoL.. but its true lah.. look like an idiot.. but how can he sae that to ME... ah.. just dun care... anyway.. he's a bastard... look down on the guys.. wah laoz... arsehole...

kaoz... on behalf of victims of incosiderate singaporeans.. hu seemed to be queens and kings, prince and princesses of the public.. i've yet to say this.. and hafta say this...!! y MOST singaporeans so inconsiderate one!!! allow passengers to alight first lah... even if u all haf the chance to enter... u all oso wun really get the seats one lorz.. u all are really KIASU lorz.. haiz.. almost got stuck onto the train.. without getting the chance of getting off the train.. wtf... even the speaker was announcing.. " FOR THE CONVENIENCE OF BLA BLA BLA BLA... .... PASSENGERS ALIGHT FIRST..." are they deaf? even i have to repeat wad the speaker had said... wtf.. when dat happens... due to my LARGE bag.. i will haf to swing it hard to clear the way for me to get off that damn train... n today.. i even scolded F***... so uncivilised of me.. but.. i was FORCED to.. no one gave me a chance of getting off... well... most of the time in de morning.. i and my frens.. wud alight in a single file.. BCOS of those inconsiderate singaporeans... hu forced their way in as KINGS and QUEENS of the public.. wtf.. we haf to give way for u? my foot lorz.. suckers... =X

still considering to stay or not to stay... dun stay for CCA... dats wad i was told... i was also told to go for JJC instead of my current JC cos of the distance and time wasted on travelling... hahaz.. dunno lehx.. not only these can affect my decision.. my frens oso... dunno are they staying anot... but i think.. i wud be staying lahx... LoL..

O level results are coming out.. wad the hell... very long lehx.. and this day haf finally come.. so glad.. hope i cud score 12 points or even lesser.. LoL...

guess i hafta end here... LoL..

but still.. i hafta say.. my LIFE simply sucks..

early in the morning... -- 10:30 PM; Tuesday, February 22, 2005
nothing to do so early in the morning.. well.. had time to write this blog cos.. im going to be late for school deliberately.. hahaz... and the same six of us are going to meet and go haf breakfast... namely yvette, pei han, irene, danis, nicholas and me.. all for the same reason.. to skip GP lesson... but still.. we hafta go school early cos we dun wanna miss out PE lesson.. LoL.. i've been skippin GP lesson lately.. but the teacher doesn't even care.. that day in the book shop... she saw me.. i thot that she wud scold me for not attending her lesson.. but instead.. she smiled.. and said... " Raphael ah.. u never come for my lesson arh..? next time must come ok? " wohx... a bit of guilt got into me... she wasn't angry... she din scold me... -_- well... but i din really care lah.. so i continue to skip GP.. =X oh ya.. i did my chinese presentation... but it was not long enuff to sustain the 5 minutes talk.. so im planning to tell my teacher that.. i lost my presentation preparation.. and i need some time to complete it... xD *like real* i bet that chuan wei had finish doing his... oh ya.. chuan wei was tzong hong's angel.. not me.. hahahaz.. damn funny... nowonder tzong hong never recieve anything.. and i was having a bet with yvette that chuan wei gonna give his mortal present... ( at first i thot i was his mortal... but in de end, i found out miss yap was my angel ) of course, i thot chuan wei will play the game accordingly.. but he din... so i lost the bet to yvette and have to be her "slave" for 5 days.. argh! helped her carry things only.. so not really tough being her slave either.. jin ming got chuan wei as his mortal.. jin ming got him chocs... guess wad did chuan wei do.. he left them in the class cupboard.. oh wtf.. jin ming got it for him specially and this is wad he did... is this how he show his appreciation? wah lao.. jin ming was pissed off by him anyways.. so he go take the chocs.. and gave out to the class.. xD gotta end here.. haiz.. today gonna be home late .. dunno got time to update my blog anot.. haf vball training in the evening..

gonna start my day fresh and happy!~ xD

but still... i hafta say.. my LIFE simply sucks...

another day is gone just like that... training and studying... but.. luckily i got my frens, those from my sec sch... hu were in the same class as me n cca.. LoL... but still my LIFE simply sucks... not goin to end my entry here.. gonna add more.. to lengthen it..

oooh.. guess wad.. i tried to get out of school early.. but too bad.. din manage to get out successfully.. LoL... skipped that GP teacher's lesson.. oh my.. her lesson was boring...!! so.. the six of us din attend her lesson and tried various ways to get out of school to get to causeway point ( we had 2 and a half hours break, isn't it a waste not to get to causeway point and haf a walk? LoL... ) but.. still it was in vain...

first.. we tried to get thru the construction yard... but... the contractor said.. " we cant let u thru... cos.. the whole lot of us wud be scolded by "u noe hu"... " so.. we decided not to gif them any trouble instead.. and we left that place wif disappointment...

next.. we went to the canteen.. and thought of climbing out of the school... hahaz.. and on our way there.. we saw our physics teacher... we were like.. oh my god.. and luckily he wasnt that observant.. we walked pass the canteen one by one.. and within minutes.. 3 of us were at the back gate.. and the girls were in the bookshop (near the gate)... wohx.. the vendors came out and look at us!! and they even ask us.. "r u all goin home?" hahaz.. we told them no.. but we are going to causeway point.. so we hurried back to the bookshop.. wondering.. whether they were on our side.. or the school's... so we left that place.. wif disappointment again..

lastly.. we thought of going out from the front gate.. OPENLY.. LoL... but of course we failed.. that security guard stopped us.. we din blame him.. he was oni doin his job.. so we went to find a teacher to help us out.. but he said he doesn't haf that kinda authority... ( of course we lied to him and told him that we were going to an open house.. ) so we ended up staying in school.. after all these nonsense.. one hour had already passed... -_- so we ended up playing computer at the foyer... until lunch... LoLz....

indeed it was a long day... F maths was as fun as ever.. LoL... enjoyed those lessons the most.. LOL... somethings are not better to put down lah.. but its really shocking that my tutor said that to me.. -_- hmmmmz... chuan wei did some strange things today.. but i dun think i wanna write them down.. mayb to him it was funny.. or im prejudiced against him?! hu noes... even i dunno.. LoL..

oh ya.. the popular qn finally came out from the teacher's mouth.. ' are we goin to stay in innova?? ' frankly speaking.. i dunno... i had doubts that i cant clear.. haiz.. but our econs tutor told us to stay.. cos she said she had fun teaching our class.. i think its obvious for us to notice that she's having fun.. LoL.. mayb she's not.. i dunno.. hmmz...

after that i went for training.. but we did nothing much.. just as usual... things happen the way things normally do.. LoL.. ended at abt 7+ but ended up at home at 9.. LoL... guess i hafta end here liaoz... gotta finish some assignments..

anyway shaun.. thanks for helpin me out for the blog..

but still.. as mentioned above.. my LIFE simply sucks...

-LosT-

another entry from me... -- 12:45 PM; Monday, February 21, 2005
well have been in this JC for weeks already.. and time really passes quickly.. made some new frens... but did keep in contact wif old frens.. had some fun in this JC esp wif my class and that martian.. hu counted down for 'take off to mars' on firday's last period... he is getting on my nerves lately.. but.. somehow i still pity him leh... everyone in the class was like ignoring him... but b4 the class did that.. we made several attempts on asking him to join us for lunch.. but NO was an answer from him.. we had class outings and we asked him along.. a NO was expected... but he added on that he doesn't want to go to any of the class outings... wtf?! wad kinda attitude was that..!? in actual fact... he ostracised himself.. and not us boycotting him.. hmmmmz.. he could think of weird answers that wud entertain the class... for example.. we were asked.. wad was the most impt thing in our life at this moment.. well.. his pronounciation was not that perfect (neither was i).. he said SEX... the class exploded wif laughter... but wad he said was tax.. WHAT? TAX? why TAX? but the things he was mainly concerned was.. was that... but i envy him for his vast knowledge... he knew alot of things... like there's this thing on china's history ( i did take history but i din study as deep as that) information was like on his fingertips.. and i was like.. WOH.. IMPRESSIVE.. the chinese students had their mouths wide open too!! like they were so shocked...! he oso made some comments in class during lessons... but the reaction that he got from the class was.. "not funny lo"... well aliya had "divorced" him... cos of that calculator thingy... LoL... found the incident funny and yet.. pissing pple off.. for his selfishness... but this 1s01 was a fun class luckily we got chuan wei (martian) in our class or else.. we dunno where to get our source of entertainment... oops... however... i still pity him lah... someone can knock some sense into him??? ask him to socialise?? haiz...

but still i haf to sae... my life simply sucks...

-LosT-

hey shaun..! thanks for helping me with the blog.. LoL...

haix.. wad a boring sunday... rotted the whole day in front of my com... but luckily.. i downloaded animes to watch.. but it occupied me for an hour only... my aunt came to my house today... recieved some red packets from her... din really care how much was it.. but.. i din go and attend to her either... was stuck in my room.. staring at my com.. and listening to music.. that hy still say wan go out.. in the end nv call me at all...

den end up doing hmwk at home... ai yer.. dun feel like doin at all leh... it seems like it cannot be finished... tomorrow still got GP.. dun feel like lookin at her face.. LoL.. her lesson is really boring... but somehow.. my class entertain ourselves with chaun wei.. LoL.. oh my.. danis called him a martian... and even teased him that he's going to use a laser to eliminate us human beings... LoL.. well.. chuan wei is very selfish leh.. i dun like him at all.. LoL.. ask to look at his tutorial he gave all sorts of crappy reasons... ask him to pick up aliya's calculator which fell besides his leg... he simply said... 'my eyes are painful.. wait first..' and the second time they ask him to pick it up... he said 'DUN RUSH ME!' how selfish can he get!! tomorrow still got trainin.. oooh sianz...gonna reach home late again.. dunno whether there's time for me to blog.. hmmmz..

haiz... as i have said.. my life simply sucks...

-lost-

a day is gone -- 6:00 PM; Sunday, February 20, 2005
went JJC with a group of frens this morning... hahaaz... quite bored there.. but a special someone made me feel not bored.. LoL... saw her leh.. she was smiling.. and.. it was so SWEET!! LoL... =X she asked me to play at her booth.. but i din buy any tics.. and she gave me a dollar worth of ticS!! LoL... and i played her game.. wah.. so happy!! well.. to me.. the treat she gave me was everything!! and i played.. we chatted for a while b4 i left to meet up my frens.. i've tried to forget her.. but.. seeing her today.. just let me feel that.. i cudn't bear to forget her... haix... anyway.. heard that she mite leave JJC.. hhaha...den i can brainwash her and ask her come IJC.. LoL.. well.. she's a dancer.. and IJC is a place for her.. hahaha.. i think... LOL.. heard that she cant cope wif her maths.. haix.. how i wished i was there for her!! stupid me.. din get anything for her during valentine's day... thot cud forget her completely.. i was such a fool!! neither did i ask her out!! useless me... -_-... hmmmz.. hy they all ask me go gk house bai nian.. but i din go.. LoL.. cos.. i went for vball... heez...

went to SMU to meet allen n jui bian.. and we played.. woh.. allen's frens are pro! LoL.. *ENVY*... hahaz.. i pity allen n jui bian too... they injured their fingers.. LoL... well.. we oso tried to jump and spike.. LoL.. it was really FUN there.. but allen doesn't seem convinced wif out answers... LoL...

went home after that.. thot cud go for piano lessons rite after that.. but hu noes.. it ended early.. so went home to rot in front of my computer.. din touch my piano for 2 weeks already.. and i went for lessons with stiff fingers.. LoL.. cant play well liaoz.. sad...

went online at nite again.. and went to look at other pple's blog.. woh.. dunno how they did it.. they haf long entries.. not like mine.. so short.. mayb the shorter the better.. hmmm.. other pple's blog i viewed was nicer and was different from their templates.. how did they do that?? hmmmz.. shud ask shaun for help.. LoL.. hes really good at it.. LoL.. after lookin at their blog and here m i starting to blog for the second time in a different new blog..trying to make it long.. LoL.. hmmz.. chatted wif some frens.. argh... shud haf shutted my mouth just now.. and now he's pissed off.... argh... was told that i was narrow minded... haiz.. mayb its true lah.. i dunno.. well.. its kinda late.. hafta slp liaoz... nitez...