Bla bla bla -- 3:45 PM; Wednesday, March 23, 2005
today was the posting of schools.. OBVIOUSLY... i stayed in innova... my first choice mah.. go school lor... cos got no reason to gif to skip school.. wah lao.. abit pissed leh.. ask us go school.. sing national anthem, check the posting and can go home liaoz... STUPID lo.. LoL... but.. oni my class had to stay back til 9 for extra lessons... i pity those hu came.. hahax... but nvm.. til 9.. we had training after that... volleyball.. nv go cross country ler.. DUN CARE... dun like to run.. hhahaax... den at 9.. went to the foyer to meet my teammates... den play there lorz... den got one uncle.. dunno hu.. ask us stop playing.. so we stopped.. and sat down on the floor just passing the ball.. just then.. MR WONG... walked pass us... n he purposely walk pass us alot alot of times... hoping that i wud respond to him <--- this was my thinkin at first.. but yet.. it was confirmed that it was true... he called me.. and said, " Raphael.. i thot i asked u to see me yesterday.. where did u go..?" so told him a reason lorz... den he asked me again," den y today nv see me? i walk pass u alot of times.. y nv come and see me?? " i smile back... saying.. "i thot u will call me.." so he said that it wasn't funny... so i ignore him totally... LoL... den he keep saying that im irresponsible.. bla bla bla.. crap... and even said.. u dun wan run tell me la.. OH MY FUCK... i think he's DEAF!! that sucker... i told him many times.. he simply ignore them... so this time around.. i said," i told u alot of times le leh... just that u ask me continue to run.. so i come training lorz..." so he added... "see.. i've wasted alot of time on u... " that idiot... he said this.. and this made me infuriated... i mean.. it's him hu ask me go.. and how can he sae that.. true that time was wasted on me.. but must he say that out..? and i din ask him to spend time on me.. i even told him i wasn't in the first place interested in running long distances... always ask me to fill in that ONE vacancy.. cos no one else wanna run.. stupid lorz.. wad am i...? somebody hu u can call anytime to fill in that space? heck la.. over liao.. so simply ignore this incident lahx... now i dislike him alot... BUT hu gif a damn abt him... GET lost.. SHOO...

hahahax... but this incident is easily forgotten just by the joy and excitment during the volleyball training.. fun lor... it's indescribable... BUT... there is someone the guys dun like.. well... he's really.. lalala.. i think i talk abt this topic the next time.. hahax... go slp.. nites..

haix... -- 1:33 PM; Tuesday, March 22, 2005
dun ruin his life... get lost.. shoo.. SHOO.. and i really mean SHOO.. fark off u two crazy idiotic imbeciles.. brainless sluts... i wan my 'old' brother back... i wan him back.. the innocent one...

+worried+

damn that two bitches.. fuck off.. dun lead my brother astray.. u two sluts really haf nothing better to do.. leave my bro alone.. suckers...

as his brother.. im really worried.. wad if he joins a gang.. kaoz.. his future wud be ruined... i mean.. he's a smart boy from the start.. a nice boy.. den if he hangs out wif these two girls.. oh my.. i think he's already in the process of 'rotting'.. dammit... haix... dun add on to my worries...

haix...

=more worried den ever=

Sunday -- 3:07 PM; Monday, March 21, 2005
haiz.. spent the whole day doing hmwk of course.. so much... =_= i shud haf started doing it during the first few days of the holis... haix... hmmmx.. just like yesterday... tok abt something else.. nothing much happen today either..

oh yea.. RU HUA is as hilarious as ever.. hahahax... her show doesn't fail to cheer me up!! hahahax.... she's the BOMB.. hahahahax.. her show is on channel 8 every sunday... at 9 pm.. hahahax... she was the massager and she looks so... WEIRD and UGLY in the show... but.. i admire her for her courage lahz... to do this show... she is one brave one.. not many will do it either... LoL... hmmmz.. watch lord of the rings also lorz... i din watch the fellowship of the ring before.. i watched the two towers... ( if im not wrong ) hmmmx... den at 10 i turned to channel U.. watch zong yi da ge da.. hahax.. got S.H.E!!! ella rox lahz.. hahahax.. i like ella lehx... LoL... hmmmmx.. den go xu chun mei... *puke* she thinks that she's pretty.. omg! she said," bu shi jue de zhi ji mei.. shi bie ren jue de zhi ji mei wo cai fa xian zhi ji mei " meaning.. not she herself say herself is pretty... is pple sae she pretty.. den she realise that she is pretty.. oh my.. what crap.. she's nv pretty.. and she oso said," xian nu xia fan " meaning... a fairy from the heavens.. if im not wrong... what!! dun insult the fairies... =X LoL..

oh.. gotta slp le..
gd nitez pple.. and sweet dreams...

-longing for the day to come-

SaTuRdaY -- 2:13 PM; Sunday, March 20, 2005
well... spent the day at home doing hmwk and rotting.. LoLz... hmmmmz.. noting much happen either.. hmmmz.. lemme tok abt something then....

my computer has been naughty lately.. it doesn't allow me to print documents.. and i have to transfer them to a diskette and bring it down to my bro's com to print.. so troublesome!! hmmz.. not only that.. it also doesn't allow me to play any games!! that explains y im always rotting at home!! or stoning... on addition... my com also have frequent errors... causing me to close down my windows.. esp.. when im updating my blog.. and it jammed halfway.. and my long long entry was GONE!! ='( but nvm... i'll replace it wif this...... LoL... it's not long enough to replace that entry.. -_- hmmmz... been listening to the radio when doing hmwk.. and found something irritatin... wad the fuk song is that... the lyrics go this way... " wo yi wei ni yi wei.. wo yi wei i yi wei.. wo yi wei ni yi wei... " and so on... wah kaox.. i can do any lyrics better than that.. and on the radio it saes " ben di zhi zhuo " and this song is local.. OMG!! singapore produces this type of LOUSY song?? unbelievable... this so is SOOOOOOO disgusting lorz... with the same phrases throughout the song.. YUCKS... some of jay chou's songs may b just screaming and stuff BUT.. MOST of his songs haf underlying meanings and meanings in them... at least.. they are... meaningful.. unlike this.. !@#$% song by the local.. anyway.. i stop here.. gotta finish as much hmwk as possible...

=NiTeZ=

FINE -- 3:40 PM; Saturday, March 19, 2005
haix... some things haf been bothering me... ever since that day.. i dunno where to head.. which path to go.. im so lost lehz... ya.. dun wish to bring it out.. for some reasons.. hmmmmz.. lets talk abt wad happen today den...

went to queensway lorz.. wif jenrine, ying ying and iswan.. see jerseys... den check out price.. and oso shop for items... quite fun larhz... not so sianz.. hmmmmz... den went around lorz.. den ate 2 ice cream cones.. well.. im for sure gaining loads of weight during this holi.. hahax.. hmmmmz... wanna buy some weights to train my jump.. i wanna jump high high!! as high as possible... LoL.. mayb i'll get them tomorrow.. LoL... hmmmz.. den the four of us get the same shoebag.. hahahax.. den we saw yu jun.. but i bet he din see us... we called out to him.. but he disappeared.. LoL... den went home after we got the shoebag.. it was around 6 plus.. nearing 7 already.. i was late for my theory lesson.. hahahx.. expected... geez.. got newcomer.... she very.. dunno how to sae her.. just think that she's abit... noisy... and talkative.. and.. show off??
oh ya.. during my trip back.. i fell asleep.. hahax.. guess wad.. i almost drooled.. hahahaha.. luckily i woke up and "drink" it back.. hahahax... or else i sure throw face.. hahahax...

anyway.. my bro was so kind to lend me his hp for sms.. hahahax.. so grateful to him.. hahahx... anyway.. gotta slp le.. nitez everyone!!

im sick and tired of my farked up life...
im fed up wif wads happening around me..
oh.. fark is wad i can sae now..

-->TroUbleD<--

LoL.. im reallie lazy nowadays.. dun feel like doing anything.. LoL.. even blogging bores me.. hahax... anyway.. here goes...

+Wednesday+

guess wad.. at last.. there is a court for us.. hahahax.. den train there lorz.. it was a fun training.. but.. oni 5 were there.. allen is still overseas and iswan got course.. geez.. danis left early.. he missed out the fun part.. hahax... hmmmz.. so after that got cross training lorz.. i dun wan go.. so i acted got sprained leg.. hahax.. den nv go lorz.. go back home.. mr wong called me.. so i ignore it.. hahax.. i mean.. i really dun wanna go.. and he's like forcing me to go.. i told him before.. and huiyin dat day repeated that to him.. guess wad he said.. "no we must persuade him to stay" geez... i mean.. im not valuable either... u can anyhow pick somebody to run... and they are faster than me by a whole lot... but.. those pple were smart.. they dun go.. so im learning from them.. to skip all trainings.. so nv go lorz.. today ( Friday ) i oso nv go.. he call me.. but nv pick up.. cos i slping.. haahax... so wednesday went home to catch american idol.. hahax.. watch lorz.. nice lehz...

+Thursday+

LoL.. went back to sec school visit the band.. my cca last time mahz.. haha.. den saw joy joy.. wah laox.. still the same.. can she ever change for the betteR?? i doubt so.. everybody DISLIKES her.. except for her beloved music students.. hu are so damn blind.. and.. WADEVA... dun care... she still sux to the core... so went lunch wif them lahx.. den tok tok.. catch up lorz...
hmmmmz... went to CTSS to train after that.. but horz.. we're like extras... me, austen and iswan go there like extra lehz.. i dunno.. i mean.. we're like so weak.. go there is embarrassing ourselves.. hahax.. but nvm.. we just went for it... LoL... im determined to play the game well.. no matter what.. im going to get thru this without having to care wad others think.. ooohz.. LoL.. nothing much happen.. but on de way home.. talk abt lame things.. its so damn "cold".. hahax..
got to think over some things for a while.. i think im a fool.. an idiot.. a bastard... haix... i think im a failure.. A FAILURE... haiz....

zzzzZzzZZzzz -- 3:50 PM; Wednesday, March 16, 2005
so tired.. blog tomorrow...

saturday's plus sunday's plus today's entries... -- 3:20 PM; Tuesday, March 15, 2005
geez.... kinda lazy to blog these days.. cos always very tired.. LoL.. anyway.. i will haf 3 entries in a row den...

+Saturday+
well.. went for a theory exam.. which is located at ACSi and i dunno how to go.. LoL... but i noe we had once a concert there.. so it wasn't that bad.. i saw familiar faces there.. hahaz.. a few from my school mahz... wohx.. then i saw jia yi.. she's taking grade 8!! LoL.. i oni taking grade 6.. failure me.. LoL.. well... the paper was 3 hours long.. and i completed it in around 1hour 45min.. wanted to leave.. but i held back and check my paper... MANY CARELESS MISTAKES... woh.. i was lucky enough to haf stayed back to check my paper... and correct these mistakes.. LoL.. so.. after checking it was like already 4.30.. so i asked for permission to leave.. and yes i left... den i wanted to leave the school.. DAMN!! i dunno where m i worx.. i think i was at a floor lower than the entrance.. so i stood down there wondering where i shud go.. LoL.. so called lost la.. LoL.. so i walked in circles... and den two girls approached me to ask me wher the water cooler was.. LoL.. so just told them.. i dunno this school.. i came here to take exam.. LoL.. den i saw kenneth going upstairs.. so i followed.. and he 'brought' me out of school.. LoL.. went home via train lorz... faster... so i reached home.. haiz.. after that still got piano lesson.. so tried to prac the piano for a while.. but im too lazy to continue.. LoL.. so play my com... den i left for my piano lesson...den come home.. den play com den sleep.. LoL..

+Sunday+
LoL.. went swimming wif gk, jm and hd.. LoL.. 4 of us oni.. den we met ee keng and others at the swimming pool.. LOL... wad a coincidence... so we swam in the afternoon lahz... swam for a while oni lahz.. so we left and went to play counter-strike.. wah laoz.. im lousy at that game.. LoL.. but.. i do not haf the lowest frag... hahahaz... well.. on some occasions... it was pure luck that enabled me to kill them in one shot.. LoL.. when i snipe them.. i wasn't really concentrating.. i accidentally click 'fire' and i killed someone without knowing it.. LoL... after the game.. we went to Jurong Point.. to get some things.. hahaz.. we got tarot cards... with animation on it.. NARUTO leh.. LoL.. my favourite... LoL.. hahahaz.. den i got some things... and den we left the place... they going pal house.. so i din go.. i went home instead... nothing really special happen.. it's just another day.. LoL...

+Monday+
wah laoz.. one day training camp.. sian lehz.. hafta report like school day lidat.. no difference in going to school lorz.. but we're late.. LoL... so.. we did a slow run for about 12 km.. but oni wen jin ming bang and tommie chen managed to finish it.. i and priscilla ran for about 9 km.. and yin hao did around 8km.. hahahaz.. funny lehz he.. went into the bushes and.. do his business... hahahahax... he had a bad stomach dat day.. LoL... den after that he went into a sec school to do again.. hahahaha.... i and priscilla were waiting for yin hao at the petrol station.. LoL.. but he din turn up.. as he was busy wif his 'businesses'.. LoL... so it was quite a long wait for Mr Wong oso.. hu wanted to drive us back.. LoL.. so during the wait.. i and priscilla chatted.. hahaz... DAO as she was.. but i realise.. she's not that bad after all.. she was not really dao.. LoL.. can see she's quite emotional oso... so we chatted as we waited for Mr Wong and yin hao.. Mr Wong appeared b4 yin hao.. so we board the car.. and went to search for yin hao.. LoL.. den saw him outside a secondary school.. LoL.. just finished his business i think.. LoL... so we went back school... and had our breakfast.. a NUTRITIOUS one.. LoL.. so we watched some videos.. ( duh.. is related to running de videos ) and den we went for lunch.. after lunch.. we had a break.. and den we left for kranji reserve... ( i think is kranji reserve ) it's really windy there... LoL.. so we ran for 6km again.. so SIAN!! my legs cudn't carry me lehz... so just run lahz.. den we strode.. after that.. listen to Mr Wong talk.. and den we enjoyed the breeze... so so so so so damn relaxing... so we left for school... we bathed in school lahz... cos so smelly.. i was so blur i forgot to bring a towel and a bag for the dirty clothes.. LoL... den after that went to haf dinner.. wif the two new guys, wen jin and huiyin.. hahahz.. i was psyco-ing one of the two new guys to join volleyball.. hahahahaz... cos.. he say he play b4 for one year.. so i tried to ask him go.. LoL... hmmmmz... that's all for the day.. LoL... so tired lehz... stupid training.. tmr going out.. and still haf volleyball training.. hahaz... im a machine.. LoL..

-->The End<--

ahz.. i missed out two days entries... -- 3:48 AM; Sunday, March 13, 2005
hmmmz.. finally.. i found myself 'hardworking' enough to update my blog... geez...

wad did i do on thurs??
-4 hours of physics.. SIAN!! consisting of 2 hours of practical.. where we haf to play wif some plasticine (dunno how to spell) yucks.. 1 hour of lecture.. sian lehz... going thru tutorial.. which i think i shudn't haf attended and shud haf came to school late.. and 1 hour of tutorial.. it was SO DAMN boring.. hahax...
-1.5 hours of GP.. wahhahaaz.. i skipped it.. and played table tennis.. GP is nv fun.. she was a boring teacher... no life.. like i've said.. she's being tooooo serious.. so this has resulted in an extension of break to 2.5 hours.. LoL
-1 hour of F math.. MATHS IS ALWAYS FUN!!! hahahaz... nv felt like hating it before.. hahaz...
-1 hour of PE.. geeez.. ran wif the cross country pple.. hahax.. slow run for 35 minutes.. and ended up runnin for about 20 minutes.. 15 minutes for someone to use the toilet... LoL.. and.. ran up the teletubbies hill and acted like teletubbies.. and.. coincidentally.. there were oni 4 of us.. ok fine... oni i acted like an idiot.. suggesting this... -_-...
after that.. went for volleyball training.. hahahah!! trying to jump as high as possible.. touching the ball hanging on the ceiling.. hahahax.. volleyball training is always fun.. ahaax..

moving on to fri.. shortest day of all days.. din go for training.. CHUAN WEI NV COME SCHOOL!!! hahaax... danis said his spaceship broke down.. so cant fly to earth... hahaz.. by the way.. he was from mars.. hahaz... den.. during chinese lesson.. Mr Lee ( chinese teacher ) talked to us abt chuan wei.. geez... he was waiting for this day to come lehz.. hahax... i hafta stop here.. hafta study and got exams later.. cos of theory exam... haiz. hope can pass.. hahaz... anywayz... ciaoz.. i will update again tonite...

unbelievable!! -- 9:04 AM; Thursday, March 10, 2005
today... i reach home unbelievably EARLY!! LoL... 3.30 reach home lehz.. as compared to other days.. its damn early liaoz... LoL... cos nv go training mahz... i dun wan run le!!! it's like so sian lehz... hmmmz.. reach home so early oso no use ahz... rotting is wad i do.. LoL... lazy play piano lahz... and i oso lazy to do anything else.. LoL.. worse is.. no game to play.. LoL...

today miss yap angry wif class lehz... hmmmz.. actually wanted to be late for tomorrow.. i dun wanna attend the 4 hours of physics lesson.. it's like so horrible lorz... den wad she said today made me abort my plan for tomorrow.. so go school per normal lorz... i dun wanna go for GP either... that miss lim.. has no life at all.. so serious lehz.. her jokes i catch no ball... -_- i heard other classes haf debates and stuff.. not like ours.. WRITING is wad we do all the time.. no ISSUES for us to tok about.. isn't GP about expressing our views and opinions?? isn't it about arguement and stuff?? geez.. i dunno lahz...

hmmmz... why did i choose IJC in the first place? i dunno lehz.. today.. someone struck me with that question.. and i was being silenced.. din noe how to answer it oso... but.. nvm.. i can still look our for y i stay there... and not go JJC.. LoL...

haiz.. wad a boring day.. and finally can rest..

-ZzzZzzzzZzzZ-

lalala -- 10:25 PM; Wednesday, March 09, 2005
*yaWn* so tired... yesterday was a tiring one.. and a super long day for me.. hahaha... chuan wei has bcome less selfish... he helped me pick up my eraser lehz!! but he seemed very reluctant doing that... but nvm..

during econs lecture.. it was fear all the time.. Mr Chu's (econs lecturer) eyes were as scary as ever.. worse still.. he kept staring at us... so i tried to stare back.. and when i do that.. i will start smiling.. but i tried to hold back my smile.. it was successful for a the first few attempts.. but.. the last one.. i failed.. however.. i was lucky enuff that he din see me smiling... wad a close shave..

GP lessons are still very boring... luckily i manage to cook up some stories to cover up for me not going GP lessons... well.. i skipped that lesson.. whenever there is HER lesson... LoL...

Chinese lessons are nice! hahaz... teacher good lehz.. always got video clips for us to watch.. sometimes.. thru listening songs teach us... and this time round is watching a movie.. LoL... cant miss his lesson as missing his lesson means missing some fun.. LoL..

hoho... shaun passed me a cd.. that has ME acting in it!! hahaz.. it was a mini drama ba... so proud to haf been part of this drama... hahahahahhahaa.. but i havent watched it yet.. it was embarrassing for me lahz.. as i was told.. i had made it seem like a comedy.. rather than a serious atmosphere... LoL... but nvm... at least i tried.. LoL...

hmmmz.. gotta end here... going to school ler.. my school very far.. 1 hour of travelling time lehx.. LoL... cya!~

-TaKe CaRe-

Dun think i will blog today... i'm so tired...

-NiTeS-

GeEeEzZzzZ... -- 1:21 PM; Tuesday, March 08, 2005
still brooding over wad happen yesterday... geez... i think.. it really doesn't pay to be kind... think for others yet... got into some kinda lame trouble... i can do NOTHING abt it.. really.. totally NOTHING... mayb i shud have followed my intuition.. NOT to go in the first place.. and nothing like this wud have happened... ahz... bygones be bygones... but.. to be misunderstood.. is something really HORRIBLE... but.. really cannot do anything ahz... lets move on to something else instead.. think of this is really... geez.. (nothing to sae)

today so called first day of school.. it seems that.. most of the pple are leaving innova.. LoL...
from the econs lecture group.. i cud tell.. HALF of it is GONE... LoL.. unbelievable!! LoL.. well erz... school was as usual sianz.. and haiz.. dun feel like studying lahz.. wanna play play play dat feeling.. AH!! they dun let me out lehz... i wanna go ODAC.. ODAC ODAC ODAC ODAC!!! i wanna join that one.. dun wan track and field...!!!! now i understand y wen jie (ex senior from band..) wanna join that CCA... that CCA look very relaxed lehz.. like always do things that are fun... and i think.. it can be a form of relaxation for me since i take 4A levels subjects... hmmmmz... i think i shall stick to the combination of subjects i have sinced the last 2 months...

hmmmz.. one more week.. lalala.. LoL... m i too fast?? geez.. i dunno.. LoL.. first time lehz... inexperienced.. hahaz... xD

-sTaY hApPy PpLe-

haiz... -- 2:42 PM; Monday, March 07, 2005
today was yet another day at sentosa... raindrops falls as and when.. sunshine comes out whenever it wans to..

hmmmz.. i was successful in pissing some pple off today... -_- din really noe i cud do that... well ermz... wad i wanted to do was.. think for others.. and din realise that.. i sent the wrong signal... geez... and... b4 dat.. pple stood around the bus bay.. standing there.. chatting.. and chatting.. waiting for pple to sae go somewhere to eat.. well.. i oso dunno where to go eat lahz... so we stood there for quite a long time.. den i decided to lead the way.. since no one wans to.. and SO.. i did.. well.. hafta boss around.. or we wud have stucked there.. chatting.. with NO where to go.. mayb.. pple got pissed off wif wad im doing.. but.. haiz... forget it... dun wanna tok abt it anymore...

so sianz.. tmr got school.. haiz.. i dun wanna go school!! tomorrow is a TIRING day.. with ALL the subjects.. excluding chinese... wah laoz.. after that still got CCA.. geez.. wanna tell Mr Wong i wanna drop out of track... and wanna join ODAC as first CCA instead.. will he allow that??? geez.. i dunno it myself too...

still pondering over subject combinations... shud i take up triple science?? or.. shud i remain in the subject combination im in now... which is double maths, physics and econs.... ahz.. hao fan ah!! (troubled ah!!)... -_-.. haiz... think think think think think...

lemme think thru... hafta go to bed.. tmr is ANOTHER schooling day... SIANZ...
-NiTeZ nItEz.. aNd SwEeT dReAmS...-

Late Night Entry -- 3:56 PM; Sunday, March 06, 2005
okokz.. i gave up hope on my com.. it's getting useless nowadays... games cant be played.. probs wif my internet explorer... jamming occasionally... internet connection is always so... on and off... geez.. stupid com..

registered for my JC entry liaoz... and i chose..
1st- Innova JC (IJC)
2nd- Anglo-Chinese JC (ACJC)
3rd- St Andrew's JC (SAJC)
4th- Jurong JC (JJC)
5th- Pioneer JC (PJC)
6th- National JC (NJC)
7th- Hwa Chong Institution (HCI)

all science courses.. geez... frankly speaking.. i feel like goin ACJC... but.. as promised.. i'll stay.. anyway... it doesn't matter which JC i enter to.. wad matters is ATTITUDE... hmmmz... so far so far.. i like IJC lahz... so put it as first choice lorz.. and.. im not going to put my first and only choice again ( this is what i did for my choosing of JC for the first 3 month ) so.. fill up 7 slots.. to make it nicer...

guess i'll hafta end here liaoz..

-NiTez N swEeT dReaMs PpLe-

today.. my frens came over.. thinking that.. this would be some kinda mini gathering... i tried to ensure that my house was empty for all of them to be present... but.. all my efforts.. went down the drain... BUT.. hu really cares.. NO ONE! so.. i waited for them to turn up at 1 pm.. yet to no avail... no one was there... still... bearing in mind that they would be late.. i waited FOOLISHLY at the bus stop.. until the arrival of zhi yong.. well.. zhi yong was the one hu asked me to organise this.. since... he wanted to catch up wif the class.. and soooooo... i did... den.. i call up guo kiang (gk) .. he sae.. he would be coming to my house himself.. and i ask, " where are the rest...? why aren't they here yet??" and so... he told me about those not coming... and.. those who would be late and coming themselves.. and then.. i hung up.. then i brought zhi yong (zy) to my house..

still thinking that they would turn up... but.. only 3 other pple turn up.. including gk.. wohz.. my two close friends wun let me down.. and this.. i noe... we waited and waiting.. looking forward to others' arrival.. YET... nothing came out of it.. F*ck sh*t... they nv come at all.. NOT even a SINGLE call FROM THEM... * many f_cks coming out of my mouth now * ahz.. they simply dun care... they haf something on or wad?? i dunno lahz... at least gimme a call la... is a call dat expensive?? u wan that call's money ah.. i can simply throw them at u... it cost around 20 cents oni lehz... WHATEVER... no point brooding over spilt milk... geez... so.. the 5 of us chatted... we talked about zy's life in NS... den we talked about our past in sec sch.. many topics... and we oso played cards... WELL.. i admit it.. my house is BORING... with my PS2 gone.. and PS1 spoilt.. there's nothing else anyone of us can do.. other than my computer.. and oso.. no games to play... btw.. i dun really like playing games.. that explains y i dun haf much games in my com... back to topic.. zy left early... and den we used the com.. and we surfed the net.. so on and so for..watched a video.. and then.. left for dinner...

during dinner... the four of us talked about BGRs... it is somewhat interesting.. cos.. it's personal.. LoL.. and not forgetting.. we are talking about palvin.. hu like to blurt out things that aren't suppose to let pple noe... and that made me lost the trust of one girl.. and she stopped telling me things after that... hahaz.. but it's all over.... so after that... we went to a cd shop.. and looked at games.. den.. i left first for my piano lesson... and they went to watch some chingay thingy at dunno where... LoL...

wohz.. fingers are like STEEL now.. so damn stiff... LoL.. never practice mahz.. geez.. lazy lehz.. LoL... tomorrow going sentosa... AGAIN.. with my skin which is shedding.. due to sunburn.. haiz.. tmr cannot topless liaoz.. my back is DISGUSTING... hahaaz....

haiz.. abit not happy lahz... abt today... i think they dun even give a damn... LALALA.. im going to ignore it... since.. its already over.. i cant change it anyway... lalalallalalalaa...
-BleHz-

what a day -- 2:37 PM; Saturday, March 05, 2005
geeez.. today nv go training... the teacher in charge like not happy.. LoL... then that P oso... better not write de name.. like bu shuang me.. (not happy wif me..) anyway.. she got a prob wif me since i first stepped into it.. SO enthu leh she.. trying to be teacher's pet.. ahz.. hu cares anyway.. dun gif a damn to her... LALALA....

went to the seminar today AGAIN.. see the army de... geez... i really hate giving up my ambition to become a pilot... just bcos.. i dun haf normal colour vision.. it really sucked... well.. too bad for me manz...

hmmmmz... i thot of getting out of track.. and join ODAC... i think it's relaxing.. LoL.. ya.. i think i shud.. oh man... if i were to get out of track... i dunno how to face mr wong lehz.... and i dunno.. if he approve of me joining ODAC.. (since he's the Head Of Department)

oh yahz... must practice piano.. wah liewz.. i lazy lehz... just hope this year can just pass... that.. i will be very happy le... haiz...

bla bla bla... so sucky... sheeeez....

-WhatEveR-

oh manz.. im recycling titles already.. nvm...

dammit.. i din touch my piano for like 2 weeks.. f***.. i was like totally no interest liao lehz.. and now.. im trying to keep it alive... forcing one self to do something is really very hard lehz.. well.. i want to live the kinda life i had in sec 3.. it was FUN... i mean.. living all alone.. i mean.. i like to be undisturbed.. living in a peaceful place... no one is ever going to disturb u... living alone is one thing... but being alone is another.... i fear being alone.. arghz... i think wad shaun said is true.. most pple from the class 2/4 in the year 2002 fear being alone... geez.. hu cares... i've got my frens.. LoL...

wah laoz.. y volleyball no training... if haf.. i sure go de lahz... today de training... ARGH!! i very reluctant to go leh!! awh.. hui min going kbox later... so good.. can go out play... argh!!

tonite den i continue.. hafta go le...
-my LIFE simply sux-

intermission....... -- 2:45 PM; Friday, March 04, 2005
geez... in this jc life.. will i be able to haf time for BGR?? ( if u dunno wad BGR means.. it means.. Boy-Girl-Relationship ) i really wonder... taking 4 A levels is certainly not easy... on addition.. im taking two sports as CCA too.. so time is scarce... LoL.. hmmmz.. this wud link to economics... geez... due to scarcity of time ( den must define --> limited resources to satisfy unlimited wants...) we hafta make a choice... ( define again... act of selecting two alternatives between selective goods and bla bla bla... not sure wad is it oso..) den.. when we make a choice... an opportunity cost is incurred... (den must explain wad is opportunity cost... Defination---> it is the next best alternative foregone.. ) oh.. manz.. isn't economics wonderful?? it's everywhere..!! *darn.. im so crappy... and so nonsensical..*

hohoho... watching american idol and typing this blog at the same time.. GEEZ.. im MULTI-TASKING!! in this fast paced society.. no one cannot afford to MONO-TASKING.. ( is there such a word? ) ahz.. back to wad i wanna sae.. hmmmz.. why are blacks *din mean to use black.. cos i dunno wad word to use... my english no good* so good in singing... wohz... esp FANTASIA!! she ROCKS.. LoL.. wahz... AMI like so boring nowadays.. mayb i shud start watching when the final twelve appears... last year was like better and nicer... even when choosing the final 12.. LoL...

geeez... actually haf alot to write.. but.. my mind suddenly became blank... continue the next time..!!
-=+ NiTeZ eVeRyOnE!! sWeEt DrEaMs +=-

lalalaz... today went to career seminar.. hohoho... den got alot of brochures... LoL... think i do business better lahz.. although last time i dun like... there's nothing else i can do.. just bcos of colour deficiency... i cant do alot of things.. i wanna be PILOT!!! SAD!! F*** la.. sh*t siaz... now.. im interested in management.. wahahhahaaz... go for the general one before i major in some special areas... hmmmz.. wohz.. den hang around there for quite some time... den sat down wif this lady to explain to us some things.. and it was a rather long chat.. hmmmz... after that went to eat BK.. den after that go join my frens play soccer.. ( so rare of me to do that... ) wohz.. like i always do.. be the goalkeeper.. den i fell down.. *POMP* and hit my knee and elbow.. wah laoz.. sway lehx.. accidentally bit the inside of my cheek.. and it bled... LoL...

well.. nothing much happen for today... dammit... shud i stay in ijc? LoLz.. the registration ends on monday... 6pm.. i shall make my final decision then.. LoL...

haiz.. tomorrow got trainin.. i dun wan my life to be so.. tense... its like so hard to live on lehz.. so much for a JC life.. lalalalaz...

-whatever-

-= mEaNiNgFuL eNtRy =- -- 12:45 PM; Thursday, March 03, 2005
In ThE sKiEs...
ThE sTaRs ShALL bE sHiNiNg...

In OnE oF tHe StArS,
i ShALL bE LiViNg...
In OnE oF tHeM,
i ShALL bE LaUgHiNg...
LaUgHiNg WiTh U,
WiShInG u'LL bE fInE...
EvEn MiLeS aWaY fRoM mE...

WhEn U r In DeSpAiR,
i WiLL fALL...
sO tHaT uR wIsH wILL cOmE tRuE...

WhEn U r SaD,
i WiLL tWiNkLe...
tO cHeEr U uP...

aNd AlSo..

i WiLL aLwAyS bE wItH u....


-+ Me +-

wahz.. today nv go for training at all... LoLz.... wohx.. den we wait for gk they all to come.. they wan go bugis.. but i nv follow lahz.. accompany huiyin to wait for them... haha... saw this weirdo when we're at the station... woah kaoz.. pengz lehz.. see his pattern... can puke!! he wore a pink cap.. pink shirt.. rainbow colour handbag and wore a pair of pants which looks like for females.. wah lao!! we were like luffing and toking abt him.. can u imagine it!! he's having a HANDBAG!! nevermind the bag.. he was waiting for someone i think.. loiter around that place for quite a while.. *vomit* .. the way he walk was like some kinda supermodel.. i din really go notice lahz.. huiyin tell me he shook his butt as he walk.. i was like.. O.O nothing to sae.. but our conversation of him was a short one.. din really care wad was he doing.. but huiyin said, " wo hen xiang zhi dao ta de dui xiang shi shui..." which means.. she wanna noe hu his partner was.. LoL... i den dun wan noe arhz...

talked to her while waiting.. well.. she told me abt someone.. she goin SA lehz.. but.. i dun think i care that much.. not even a drop of feeling is left... but guilty all over.. for asking her out these few days.. like sending the wrong signal to her... well.. i think.. some drops of it have gone to someone else.. wahz... she online le... LoL.. ask pple whether she look chio anot.. but they sae no.. wah laoz.. is my taste different mehx? i think she cute lehz... drop the topic..

hahahahahaz... i think my decision has come to.. i think im gonna stay in ijc... *applause* (wad crap).... dunno lahx.. hahaz.. no need to let go wad i cant bear to let go.. LoL... but still.. there are pple leaving.. but.. hu cares.. it doesn't mean they get out of ur lives... still can keep in contact rite.. singapore so small...

wahahahahz.. go seminar see see.. mayb can know wad other occupations singapore has... den see whether it suits me.. and i will set it as my ambition.. currently.. a lecturer is wad i wanna be.. dunno lahz.. i just LOVE maths.. LoL..

geez.. my mood is getting better each day.. LoL..
anyway pple!! all the best in de future..!!
CiAoZ!~

argh!! today got training...!! haiz.. sunburn lehz.. my skin pain lehz... cudn't sleep on my back.. so i sleep facing the bed... but still cannot move lehz.. move abit.. painz.. worse still.. must go for training... dunno how am i going to move freely...

funny lehz.. my bros cannot wake up this morning.. cos they dun haf the human alarm clock for this whole week... ( and that's me!! ) and i think they ended up late for school.. hahahahaz... the day before ytd.. passed them the clock for ytd.. so they weren't late ytd.. and ytd.. my mum put the alarm clock in my room... LoL.. i was woken up by the clock.. by i offed it and continue slping.. thinking that my bros had the alarm clock.. hahaz... too blur to even care at that time.. LoL...

geez... gk smsed me to go bugis.. well.. i wanted to join them.. but got trainin at 4 pm... haiz...

wah laoz... i still dunno where to go..
ehz.. passerby.. who r u?

went out today... -- 3:02 PM; Wednesday, March 02, 2005
oh my.. today was sort off bored.. XD.. oops.. but.. its true though....

went to sentosa.. with oni 6 pple!! omg.. LoL... but it turn out to be quite ok lahz... actually.. 5 of us wanted to stay overnite.. but.. we changed our decisions at the very last minute... (i shudn't haf brought the tent along.. its so heavy... n i got sunburnt!!) well... its so COINCIDENTAL... alot of innovians there.. LoL.. guess wad.. i saw iswan and his classmates too.. i think.. most of his classmates are volleyballers... LoL... hmmz.. took quite a number of photos today... but dun think i'll put them online anyway... ohz.. i fell into daze today for a number of times.. thinking abt which path i will choose.. DAMMIT... so troubled u noe.. haiz... drop this topic... hate it...

tok abt sentosa... i was there with my X-country pple.. but.. oni 5 (including me) was present.. i asked danis along so that got more pple... asked some others.. but they sae.. they extra.. dun wanna go... so.. the 6 of us went there.. went to palawan beach... and then.. the first thing we did was.. play volleyball.. its kinda sian at first... and i feel that.. they themselves are feeling bored too.. LoL... so din really care much... and dunno wad time.. got these two ladies.. went up to us.. i think they are from poly.. doing a project.. and they asked us to do some acting for them.. (playing the ball happily...) so.. we just did... we oso buried huiyin's body... but.. it's too easy for her to break through... den we got into the water.. and the ladies came again.. to ask us to act again.. wah... they call me to be the one being thrown into the water... OMG!! which dumbass would let him/her self from being thrown into the water... and.. YES.. i did.. just to entertain them... (that makes me a dumbass) so got thrown into the water.. they like very happy lidat... -_- then after that... at around 3+ i think.. we went for lunch... at Burger King... then got this peacock... we fed the peacock with fries... LoL... den.. suddenly.. an ice war was triggered.. den we shot ice.. so 'intelligently', yin hou grabbed my straw and i wasn't able to 'attack'.. instead of using the straw, i used my tongue to 'transport' the ice out.. LoL... it was so fun lehz.. (childish oso lahz.. ) den we took pictures at a certain place.. cudn't remember.. and took some funny photos... LoL... after that.. played volleyball wif iswan they all.. i think i got carried away.. and i lost myself... felt guilty to haf interrupted them.. =x.. after that.. we tan for a while more.. den we left for dinner.. shi han left for home first.. so.. we proceeded for dinner.. den we saw hizam.. and his malay frenz.. went home together lorz.. den on train tok cock... den got home and here i am updating the blog... LoL...

haiz... fell into daze alot of times at home again.. thinkin and thinkin... where to go.. the words of others going thru my mind.. haiz.. FED UP LAHz... haiz...

im really lost.. someone.. guide me out of the forest... PLEASE!!

_LosT_

ecstatic.. yet disappointed.. -- 2:58 PM; Tuesday, March 01, 2005
oh well.. today got the results... before the announcing of results... they took a lot of time to tell us about the school's overall performance.. and.. it was.. BETTER THAN THE LAST YEAR!! congrats JSS... anyway... deqi was like saying she feel very nervous and stuff.. LoL.. me myself too was nervous.. and i tried to keep myself from thinking abt the results... so.. there they announced the top students.. as JSS wasn't much of a CLEVER school.. as compared to... schools with aggregade of 250++... pple with at least 3 A1s and 2 A2s could get up on stage.. (including a pass in english) so.. they announce... name by name.. and then.. HUIYIN... got on stage.. wah.. she so clever.. 4 A1s and 2 A2s.. i was happy for her.. and oso kinda expected it.. cos.. she worked damn hard for it to prove that ASSHOLE ( MR WONG WAI SENG ) wrong... so me myself oso became a top student too.. bcos.. i was eligible... for the conditions stated..

well... ecstatic!! surprised..!! i got wad i always wanted to score.. 12 points...!! LoL... there are tears of JOY!! LoL... oh my... i got the score i wanted to score for 3 of my subs.. and 2 other subs.. was surprising.. as i din manage to complete them.. ecpecting them to be much worse.. and.. DISAPPOINTED.. for my both of my language... haiz.... i got a C5 for english... its so DISAPPOINTING!! i revised my english for the first time in sec school.. and this is what i got... i thot i cud score a B3.. and yet.. haiz... but.. i was lucky enough to have passed my english.. some frens out there failed their english.. although they did very well for the other subjects.. i got B3 for my chinese AGAIN... haiz... i thot i cud score an A1.. but.. it turned out the other way... haiz.. drop this two.. dun feel like toking about it...

oh yea... after that.. we went to watch movie.. wah laoz.. boring show... went to the toilet and thot of entering the other cinemas.. LoL.. but i din lahz... daniel was slping throughout the whole show.. he paid $6.50 to sleep there... LoL... lousy show i say... waste of my money and TIME.. LoL...

oh yea.. so what if i got my results... i still cant make a decision for myself!! it sux totally lorz... wah laoz... haiz... ijc? poly? or better jcs? this is where im stuck at... haiz... someone.. GIVE ME SOME CONSTRUCTIVE ADVICES!! PLEASE!!

haiz... im totally lost...

a few more hours before i recieve my results... haiz... im really troubled... JC or POLY!! ARGH!!
it totally sucks.. haiz.. hope i cud get 12 points... or below... with 4 A1s..
haiz... i'll just update tonite.. with my points later... i hope all those hu i know stay in IJC.. and i think i will be more comfortable with the making of my choice in staying in IJC... instead of POLY...

-i cant let it go.. i simply cant.. its hard...-

-= TroUbLeD SaD =-