-- 11:15 PM; Monday, August 21, 2006
i guess this is what i want..
it seems better this way....
so that i won't feel that way anymore...
i THINK i'm happy with what i have now...

hai.. i always select the wrong choices in life...
it always turn out that those who you don't like are the ones who will be there no matter what happens...
it's always this way...
it occured to me for the third time now...
asss....

i should stop disliking people and accept people for WHAT they are...
but difficult LAH...
i always judge people by their COVER first...
difficult..
lol...

i shall stop and change this stupid habit..

eNd

[sometimes i feel that i'm doing things for others but they don't actually care... so why bother...]

-- 9:50 PM; Sunday, August 20, 2006
these few days darn busy..
have tons to do...
i'm behind my schedule...
i know i shouldn't be here updating..
haha... but i'm a human too...
need to take short breaks...
hmmm..
saturday went for the economics talk at NUS...
seriously...
i dozed off during the first talk...
not because the talk is boring...
i guess it always occur during the first lecture.. =X

hmmm.. then went to play basketball after that...
with jason weeling jade jillene cheewee....
man.. tiring... didn't manage to SHOOT any balls in.. SO SAD LAH
haha...

have to do the essay now...

gotta study after finishing the essay too~

eNd

-- 10:14 PM; Thursday, August 17, 2006
i know... it isn't my concern anymore..
but i don't want all the J2s efforts to go down the drain...
we finally prevented ourselves from getting disbanded last year.. during the first 3 months...
and you guys are doing this to us...
man... this is disgusting...

and and... this feeling keeps coming back...
i hate this feeling...
can don't let me feel this way?
it's fucking irritating....
it sucked totally...
it's making me an angry man!!
and i'm hiding it...
making me = to hypocrite...
fuck fuck fuck...
ARGH!!

-- 6:44 PM; Wednesday, August 16, 2006
im so prone to mishaps nowadays...
breathing difficulties..
flu...
almost fell down in school outside the LT yesterday in front of everyone with a "split" pose...
today.. woke up early in the morning and got my neck SPRAINED...

missed GP exam...
assssss......
every exam is impt... =_=

hais...

eNd

-- 11:41 PM; Tuesday, August 15, 2006
everyone had a choice..
to be happy or not to be happy...
and i chose to be happy...
deep down inside..
seroiusly...
i'm not...
it somehow gets to me...
to feel so pessimistic at times like this...
to feel so helpless...
so useless...
to know that i'm so less abled...
i just do not know...
what i should do...
i tried my best in what i do...
but it fails me all the time..
this society is very practical..
they are concerned with results..
and so am i..
i'm very concerned about it...
i'm trying very hard..
i'm going to strive for what i want...

but am i able to do it...

i doubt my abilities...
setbacks after setbacks...
i think it's hard...
i never failed so much in life before...
things had been going on smoothly until this year...

it seems a bad year to me...
i don't want to repeat JC life... i don't want to end up in a poly...
i just want to get it over and done with...
and finally..
on the day of recieving results...
i would want to see 4 As on my result slip.. and a B3 for my GP...
that's what i wanted...
......

eNd

-- 1:17 AM; Saturday, August 12, 2006
i saw bulldog at jurong point with her boyfriend yesterday..
and took a picture with her..



hmmm...
she wore the same t shirt as me..
ha..
wanted her to join us for dinner...
BUT..
we decided not to ask her to..
since..
she was with her boyfriend..

hmmm... should ask her out with us more often...

=D

XIN RUI!
be glad that you met a KIND soul like me!!
to be so kind to adopt a bulldog.. =P
haha.. joking yah...

-- 1:41 AM; Wednesday, August 09, 2006
some funny links..

here

here (don't know why issit only my face...)

here

here

here

here

here (this is so very funny!!!)

here

eNd

-- 9:02 PM; Monday, August 07, 2006
was kind of not feeling well today...
went to see the doctor...
rested..
and it makes no difference...
i rather die...
it feels so horrid...
and i'm given an MC for tomorrow...
the doc ask me stay at home and rest...
and i just remembered..
i have econs mock exam...
ASSS
how can i miss it?!
this MC is just useless LAH...

ok.. what i've promised in the earlier post...
the pictures of our splendid work...
the process...
and the befores and afters...

the process... i didn't take many pictures... koko did... still waiting for her to send me...



most of us at work...



pei han and me painting the outside...



yup.. i'm on top.. haha...



before....



after... this is drawn by hongshing and painted by us..



this is by lijun.. HOW CARTOONIC!! lol... but it's for a nursery u see...






before...





after... i did it.. =D with the help of junhao's computer.. i don't know the order of planets... painted by us



before...



yuen chit touching up...



peihan acting like she's part of the painting...

i designed both! =D kiddy leh... nursery mah..



before..



after... innovians must be like stars... uphold innovian spirit..
i'm vomitting blood...................... after typing that..



before...





after.. i forgot who designed it.. lol..

hmmm.. no more befores.. but there are end products.. i'm not posting them all...



someone said that it looks like it came from happy tree friends... =_=



we must thank lijun for her spelling mistake...



fireballs....



parasites...



satellite...



meteor rocks...



the UGLIEST painting... no one dared to touch this.. it's very ugily drawn.. LoL..



our class.. guess who is who...



u will find that peihan is really short...



the answers... =D

-- 10:53 PM; Sunday, August 06, 2006
FINALLY!!
those pieces of wall are done...
and..
FINALLY...
everyone came...

*touched* as if...... im relieved instead...

the pictures of the walls painted by US...
05S11...
designers of the wall...
-Hong Shing
-KoKo
-Lijun
-Talented Me

LoL...

hmmm... the bloody PHOTOBUCKET doesnt want to work...
so post on some other days..

eNd

-- 12:27 AM; Saturday, August 05, 2006
thank you louie lim gui min for getting me into trouble...
saying sorry won't help...
it doesn't reverse time..
it doesn't stop you from saying anything...
it doesn't SOLVE the problem you got me into...
seriously...
i won't even let you look at the photos in my laptop anymore..
let alone touching my laptop...

THANKS

now jade won't even talk to me..
i presume she thinks i'm a jerk...
i'm a bastard...
she's awaiting for revenge...
waiting for the right moment to get that revenge...

THANKS again

i'm like a freak in her eyes now...
and it's my mistake to let you SEE the PHOTOS in my laptop...
letting you see the things that aren't suppose for you to see... (not porn for goodness sake)

to jade:
hey... if what had happened made you very angry... i'm sorry... maybe, saying sorry won't help.. but i'm not good at words.. accept my apology...

talk to me again okay....

.......

today..
i went to my cousin's house...
he injured himself...
so went to visit him...
my and my other two cousins with my two brothers...
it's been such a long time i've hung out with them...
in the past, we'll always hang out during the holidays...
but... we're all grown up now...
we have different directions to go...
luckily...
today.. we gathered...
else... i don't think i will recognise them in future..
HAHA..
had a great time today...
we talked quite a lot today...
their topics...
girls and boobies...
and i was...
"hmmmm....????"
"no comments..."
but of course.. this is just a small segment....
most of it was...
girlfriends...
school....
what we want to do in future...
and also.. NS

my cousin going NS this year.. my other cousin just finished his NS...
seems like i'm the next one.. =_=
we're going to become police together...
if it's possible.. HAHA...
but seriously..
i don't want to be police..
LOL...

eNd

[i'm in hot soup.. no one can save me...]

-- 10:46 PM; Tuesday, August 01, 2006
i still can't believe that i'm overweight...
slightly overweight i mean...
171 cm and i weigh 67.5 kg...
HOW SAD....
MAYBE it's the muscles...
MAYBE it's my bones...

KAOS.... it's all MAYBE's...
shit.. don't enlist me in the TAF CLUB...
i don't want to join yiling.. =X

tomorrow got mock test for c maths stats...
SIAN... end school late again...

anyway... GP lesson was FUN today..
relative to the two years of gp lessons we had...
i learnt incredibly many words...
and... the word that left me a huge impression.. was.....

PRURIENT

it means lustful...

STIMULATE

means trigger...

let me try forming appropriate sentences...
nicholas is prurient, everytime he dates, he goes for sex and by seeing the partner's figures, it will stimulate his sexual desires...

hahahaha.. =P

my cough is exacerbating... i don't know why...
it was all well in second.. and now it had gotten worse...

nvm...

eNd