-- 11:44 AM; Monday, May 29, 2006
i didn't know such childish people exists in IJC.. and for once, i thought it only exists in J1s.. but sadly... this blog prove me wrong..

http://tiggersteph.blogspot.com/

MAN.. these PEOPLE.. OUTRAGEOUS.....

eNd

-- 11:01 PM; Sunday, May 28, 2006
finally, i got my kayaking one star.. i'm going for two star!!

yesterday and today, i went to east coast for this kayaking course... yesterday was quite boring, but until we learn how to capsize our own boats, DAMN, everything was FUN.. haha..
today, we went out to sea... too bad we can't kayak to far away places... ARGH... danis and i had to double to be out at sea on the kayak... it was quite an experience to kayak on the sea.. anyway, THERE'S NO SUN!! i wanted the SUN!! HELL!! WHERE DID THE SUN GO!!! wasn't able to get tanned... dammit... was able to do something like.. STANDING ON THE KAYAK.. MAN.. IT'S COOL! LoL...

still having the "wavy wavy" feeling...
i swear i will vomit if we ever form rafts on the sea again... i almost vomit today..

the sad thing is...

i'm down with flu..

eNd

-- 9:16 PM; Friday, May 26, 2006
at home also "gena" pissed off...
at school also "gena" pissed off...
FUCK...
i hate it..

eNd

-- 7:56 PM; Thursday, May 25, 2006
watched american idol.. MAN.. i love the duets..
HAA..
duets are nice...
gees... i didn't know there is such a crazy person on earth.. DAVE HOOVER.. MAN.. HE'S EMBARRASSING!! such a retard...
hmmm.. i must say.. blacks are GOOD at singing... lol.. i like the DIVA.. LOL...
anyway... Rhonetta is funny.. HAHAHA... she was cursing and swearing.. and the censoring was funny.. haha...
then there's this surprise.. CLAY AIKEN POP OUT.. LoL... mann... he rules man.. LOL.. i love his songs..
and.. BROKENOTE MOUNTAIN.. LOL..
this year's american idol is so cool.. LoL..

saw N80.. i'm so determined to get it.. HAA..

x-men 3 is finally out... I MUST WATCH IT!!

tomorrow is GP exam.. =_=
wonder how WELL will i do...

eNd

-- 10:46 PM; Wednesday, May 24, 2006
just now koko sent me an email... it's about people having problems...

it goes like this...

this lady was committing suicide from the 10th storey and she describes what she sees during the process of falling...
before she jumped down, she thought that she was the most unlucky person on earth
when she fell, she looked into the windows of every floor....
10F - a couple, who was known to be very loving, was quarrelling and hitting each other
9F - the usually strong on the outside Peter was crying
8F - this lady saw her husband on a bed with her best friend
7F - this lady was taking her anti depression pills
6F - this jobless man is still looking for job for a month already
5F - a very respected man was trying onto his wife undergarments
4F - Rose was fighting with her boyfriend AGAIN
3F - this old man is still hoping for someone to come and visit him
2F - this widow is still staring at the picture of her husband who passed away a year ago
and after she had seen all these, she felt that she isn't in that bad a state at all.. and realised that each and everyone of us has our own set of problems and worries.. and now, when these people look at her, they won't feel that they are that bad after all.. and now they are looking at her...

the hidden message is that... it is nice to be important but it's important to be nice...

i guess i will hafta end here.. gotta sleep...

eNd

this is my first time using MSN to do group discussion, for the presentation tomorrow...
i'm bloody fucked up...
UNFORTUNATELY, i have powerpoint... and i'm supposed to DEVELOP ALL THE POINTS... with the keywords they give me..
HELLO!!
i also can throw keywords at you too and let the thinking RESPONSIBILITY falls on you~

knn...

i'm freaking pissed...
i really am..

this is my ever first time that i regretted having a laptop and powerpoint programme..

eNd

-- 10:14 PM; Tuesday, May 23, 2006
what a waste of my time..
just to go there collect a piece of certificate..
which doesn't show much...

ARGH!!

eNd

-- 10:12 PM; Monday, May 22, 2006
i'm experiencing breathing difficulties recently... went to see a doctor, and he said i'm having symptoms of stress.. =_=
i seriously need a break...
how i wish i need not go to school tomorrow...
i'm feeling lost.................

today, i did not understand some physics stuff...
asked for help, and guess what, it was all in vain...
tried to ask, someone changed the subject..
and i asked again, no one was listening...
i was pissed... and i'm already freaking out...
then these two idiots kept talking about their own things..
thanks AH..

so i slept for 1.5 hours during physics lesson...

it turns out to be that the ones who are normally with you are the ones who always disappoint you...
it seems that no matter how much i give.. it wouldn't be returned to me..
i gave as much help to the ones around me..
and no one HELPED me..

what's this...

you guys are too much....

-- 9:35 PM; Sunday, May 21, 2006
went to jp to buy myself a pair of sandals... man... it cost me $55.. i'm almost broke!!
need cash... ARGH!
then went for a haircut..
oh my guan yin ma...
i do not know how do i say it..
my hair..!!
i think it's abit.. unlike me.. to have such hair..
HAHAHA...

here goes..



i'm acting COOL..
i know and i had already predicted..
you are MESMERISED by me.. HAA!!
joking LAH...

eNd

-- 6:03 PM; Friday, May 19, 2006
today was IJC's second sports day and it is also my second year in IJC. LoL... anyway, today ran 4x100 m.. and managed to clinch a third.. man.. disappointment in myself.. did not run fast today, perhaps because of the late nights i have been having lately that made me so tired... anyway, good job team..

we had our cheerleading competition.. last year, taurus cheerleaders were the champs.. yup, thats my house, i did participate in it.. =x and this year, other houses improved significantly, especially rasalas.. hmmmm.. but still, they can't differentiate what's a dance and what's cheerleading... honestly, the dance was nice, but it ain't suitable for this category.. but anyway, there is a tough fight between Taurus and Rasalas... perhaps, these two houses are the only competitive ones in cheerleading... =x hmmm.. miss lee was quite strict in our stunts and two of our major stunts were cancelled off.. but.. IT'S OKAY.. we managed to fill it up with more exciting stuff, making it less dangerous but yet, more exciting.. MUAHAHAHAHA.. thanks latha and justin.. so when the time comes for the announcing of the results, it was quite nerve racking, we do not know what's going to happen...

"Taurus"

and then, we are the champion again.. HAA... the girls screamed and shouted like mad, me nicholas and hongqing showed no emotions.. i think it's because, we did not really put in much effort actually.. HAA...

i love my stunts... NICE... lol.. taught nicholas the spinning thing.. muahahaha.. then both of us did it.. WONDERFUL.. did not take much pictures today, i only took one with nicholas...



the one and only photo taken on my hp, the rest were on the PROFESSIONALS' (hmm.. i wonder...?) camera..

hmmm... proceeded to renew my passport... yinhou went along because he wanted to get a bag from bugis... and it ended up i got one bag too... no more $$ for this month... SAD CASE LAH! haha...

anyway.. so tired.. sign off now~

eNd

-- 11:37 PM; Tuesday, May 16, 2006
2 more weeks and i'm in UK....
3 more days and i can go home early everyday...
damn... more n more pimples on my face...
my face is disfigured.. HAA...

tons of work piling up like a mountain...
just finished my econs..
what a relief...

hmmm.. photos taken ages ago.. and recently...
here goes...



was taken last year.. went to cherling's house to do some J1 orientation stuff.. then took a photo with her dog.. i bet i'm cuter.. just that my eyes aint that big..



taken during the national vertical marathon.. hmmm... i think it was peihan who secretly took my photo... HANDSOME RIGHT! haa...



taken 3 weeks ago during kokos birthday... i was fascinated by the fact that there is a 5 times as hot wasabe.. the model beside the product is simply so dashinG!! HAA



taken quite recently, before the guys head for a match... venetia.. obsessed with me... LOL... nahh... she has boyfriend liao.. anyway.. she not my type.. HAA..



taken almost recently, huiyin was fascinated with the earthquake.. so i had to accompany her to act DUMB..



louie's present.. little did he realise that the things inside are originally his.. LOL..



had to smile to the camera.. the waitress asked me to smile.. SHE'S like flirting with me.. but i had to say.. "sorry miss, i'm only 17..." of course i DID NOT say that.. LoL..



hmmm.. handsome(me), chiobu(louie) and pu toh ji(huiyin)


(irritating.. there's some problem with photobucket...)
louie and dashing/suave guy.. hahahahhahahahaa...

tats all le...

-- 9:51 PM; Monday, May 15, 2006
i'm freaking PISSED.. don't ask me why...
after all that's happened today..
i realised.. that i have no more metal strength...
i give up at the moment when i feel that hope is all lost..
unlike the last time.. i wouldn't
i would want to prove people wrong..
but now,
i'm letting them write me down...

it's reflecting in my studies...
in my sports...
i give up easily..
i'm no longer the one who fights for what i believe in..
i just give in..
after all...
i'm sick and tired of all the nonsense that's happening around me..
it sucked..

i just hope that all these nonsense would end..
soon...
and i mean it..
REAL SOON....

eNd

-- 5:11 PM; Saturday, May 13, 2006
went to have my passport extended today with jason, unfortunately, that queue is so bloody long and we ended up taking our passport size photos only. looked at his passport and damn, he doesn't have an ugly photo, it's his toddler photo.. ARGH! then he sees my passport photo and started laughing, saying i look like an AH SOH, a FAT one...

do i like that horrid when i was P5?
i really wonder...
i thought it was CUTE!
HAAA

then went to queensway, jason wants to look for his shoes, so tagged along and conveniently get louie's birthday present and his birthday is 4 days ago.. =x hmmm.. could tell that the uncle BUI TAHAN him.. was laughing at the uncle and jason, how interesting their conversation gets, and how the uncle look after him.. jason is one fussy one, he really TOOK his own sweet time to pick his shoes.. LOL.. i understand what's he's going through.. cos i'm like that too.. HAA..

going out to celebrate louie's birthday with huiyin today, huiyin FORGOT that it's his birthday 4 days ago.. lol.. hmmm.. we got him something, and wanted him to remember what happen during sec 2 which me and huiyin found it hilarious.. going to swensens later and buying an ice cream cake for him.. WHAT GREAT FRIENDS ARE WE! haa..

now for the photos!!



day at sentosa, no no.. we not together.. she's already attached..



after our last match.. we went to seoul garden..



i'm full and they are forcing me to eat.. =x



i grown fear for food..



our second last training...



we jumped and jumped...



and thought that this is the best photo taken.. =D

eNd

-- 1:42 AM; Friday, May 12, 2006
hmmm.. i was walking home from the MRT station, and i met jun xian on the way.. well, he was my senior in jurong, and graduated 2 years earlier.. chatted with him for quite a while..

i always think that, things happen for a reason.. for this, to meet him and talk about the past, the times i had with the military band, when i was in sec 1, and any random people who is in the band. guess what, i realised that time really flies.. it kinda struck me when he reached his home and i have to continue to walk. i realised i have to cherish my time and treasure them.. it reminds me that A levels is really near and there's a need to pick up the speed and go fast.. else, i would fail to meet my expectations.. but seriously, all is talk.. i simply can't do it... i'm trying my best to concentrate, but now, i have been thinking, my thoughts have been straying, and i realised i can't focus at all.. but still, i can't give up.. unlike a certain someone who keeps saying die, cannot do it, having pessimistic comments and mindset.. this kind of guy will never succeed in life. but who cares, it's his problem not mine..

well, i expect quite highly of myself, and i can't accept failures. YES, i can't.. i aimed for straight As for all my subjects, i aimed for a distinction in my S paper.. but i've not been doing things right...

hmmm... anyway, i ain't an angry man.. it's all the things that are happening around me to make me feel this way.. i'm always a HAPPY MAN.. not ANGRY, i repeat HAPPY!!!

LoL...

eNd

-- 8:05 PM; Wednesday, May 10, 2006
guess what, i'm gonna rant in this entry...

well... i guess, i still feel left out.. so.. what the fuck is wrong with you guys?! i've tried to squeeze myself in, but most superbly, i was like REPELLED from you people!? you know magnets?? REPULSION!? and guess what, i'm non-existent to some f*ckers in class. in fact, i think only ONE.. and it happens to be you. of all people YOU. have you ever been treated like you don't exist at all?! ME, sitting there quietly, looking at you talking but YOU, don't even give a damn to look at me and speak. YOU, who only have HIM in mind.. oh man, thanks.. i guess i will hate you from today onwards. and ya.. THANKS FOR LOOKING DOWN ON ME.. f*cktard..

"luckily never put RAPHAEL to run 400"

what a CASUAL REMARK.. FUCK OFF FUCKER... hmmm.. i guess the repulsion EXISTS when this FUCKER is around.. i'm not used to it yet, and i'm trying my best to get USED TO IT.. so that i don't feel BELONGED to this class.. it's quite pathetic to be in a class of 13 where there are people who are OUTCASTED.. and leaving a group of single digit cliques around.

ya la ya la.. your dear dear still the best LAH... he very kind LAH.. he very nice LAH.. he very talented LAH.. he very (whatever you like to say about him that's so good) LAH.. i'm like a puny little ant as compared to him LAH.. you know absolute advantage?! hmmm.. i think it can be used here... HE has an ABSOLUTE advantage over RAPHAEL.. not only that, HE has comparative advantage over RAPHAEL... so guess what, i'm lousy in everything.. that's what he's trying to say...

please LAH.. be yourself CAN!? you are not yourself at all LAH.. and i can't stand it anymore.. fancy acting cute, trying to capture people's attention, screaming out of nowhere (isn't it attracting attention?!).. in words.. IRRITATING.. perhaps more words... ANNOYING, PAIN IN THE NECK, AGGRAVATING, INCOMMODIOUS...

hey people~ guess what, i'm being left out in class again!!

anyway, i was told that i was direct.. DIRECT.. yep, the personality test we took or something.. i don't think so.. maybe i should start practicing it in class like i did during my sec 4.. whatever i have to say in mind, i will just say.. maybe i will say some things offensive.. but i don't really going to care.. being treated like a non-existent.. THANKS AH!!

-- 10:48 PM; Friday, May 05, 2006
cheers from the crowd.....
cheers from the team......
and guess what... we lost...
those cheers weren't for us.. it's for them...
but...
a job well done team!!
i'm happy we've accomplished this much.. and we're so close to getting a top 4..
getting a top 4 is a bonus, we are not suppose to be in the top 8 in the first place...
but.. we've proven ourselves.. we actually are worthy of being in the top 8...
we messed out HCI.. we had a close fight with NYJC.. and although a humiliating defeat by the VJC during our friendly, we had certainly improve by making them to have a tough time today.. with a score of 25-22 and 25-21..
my recieving was better today.. and i certainly saved quite a few balls.. =D
and i'm glad..
we lost today, our crucial match..
but it's alright...
i can take it... because i understand the situation...
however.. the sad thing isn't the loss of the match..
but stepping down..
being officially detached from the team..
after so much we've gone thru, after the time we shared, the bond built in the team is so strong that i can't let it go..
i feel sad.. real sad..
the struggles we went through during the first three months...
the struggles and troubles we met along the way...
overcoming all odds together..
we've certainly formed a bond that is so unbreakable..
being part of this team rocked!
it ROCKED!!

we had our last dinner together.. with most of the team present.. was fun, enjoyed it..
certainly, i did not take this lightly.. i'm really sad, i can't let it go...

[pictures taken today would be uploaded at a later date...]

end

-i feel sad inside.. it's certainly unbearable...-

-- 1:15 PM; Monday, May 01, 2006
oh man.. i watched seed of chucky on SCV..
utterly disgusted..
can't take it...
YUCK!!!