hmmm.. -- 7:11 PM; Friday, October 14, 2005
gonna make up for the many many entries that i've not typed.. haa...

but i think.. NO...

wahahas.. finally its over.. indeed.. i've high expectations for myself in maths.. and oso.. hoping to score the highest in level.. wahaha... but.. my hopes seemed to be dashed.. as i heard that someone from my class scored 94.. and it isn't me.. =_= the chances of me.. scoring higher than that?? it's slim.. hais...

so.. today was my last paper... okkkaay.. judging from the comments made by my classmates.. i think im at a better state... i threw away 11 marks.. I FORGOT ABT THAT VECTOR QN!! i was like.. wth.. i realised that during the last 3 minutes.. oh fark.. how to finish in 3 minutes.. so.. i got to let it go though.. it's abit heartbreaking.. cos.. I HAD SPARE TIME AND I MISSED OUT THAT QUESTION!! hais...

it's been really tough studying for promos.. no will.. i've no motivation.. no one to stand by me.. yes.. it may seem that i haf pple standing beside me.. but somehow.. i dun feel their presence... so.. i think i will score worse than my summer test.. =_=

S papers.. nahs.. im giving them up.. no point taking S papers... i m not able to haf the perserverence to study for them.. i dun read up..

okkkayy.. lemme touch abit on my papers...

Day 1... i had my econs paper... omgg.. i haf a feeling that i will get a C or D... nahs.. it wun be an A... hahas... i dun really haf much hopes one my econs.. haas... after that paper.. i went to the sch's library to do some maths...

Day 2... had my maths paper.. okkkay.. early in the morning.. i kept chanting that.. i wan to score the highest for C MATHS.. haha.. best if i can score full marks.. BUT.. hais.. i found out my careless mistakes.. =_= ( also.. after hearing that someone scored 94 in my class and the way the teacher put it, was making me feel that it wasn't me.. hai.. i was shattered... into many tiny bits.. i crumbled... and i had no mood to go out today.. so went home early...)

Day 3.. BREAK!! NO PAPER!!

Day 4... had my physics... okkay.. it seemed that it went well for me.. that stupid irene.. ask em so many qns.. and i found out tons of careless mistakes.. it looks like. i m going to say bye bye to my A~

Day 5... which is today.. had f maths.. the details on top.. haa.. after the paper.. got lessons...=_= maths lesson.. its on mechanics today.. very physics... haa.. but it looks fun~~ but.. im so moodloess that i dun feel like doing anything.. ever since he said that.... those underlined on top.. so after that.. went bowling wif my class.. so i was rather moodless... i feeling very horrible.. DAMN HORRIBLE... even when im bowling.. i feel rather down.. maybe i covered myself up very well that no one notices it.. this.. in addition.. made me feel that.. my presence aint felt.. hmmm.. forced myself to smile quite sometimes.. but yet successful.. i will smile very easily.. but.. it is always difficult to show that im moodless...

jun hao irritated me today... ya.. his keys.. i got irritated easily due to my mood today.. im rather DOWN n moody.. or moodless... he kept swinging his keys.. ever since he stepped into the MRT station.. and then... after the games of bowling. he swung his keys again.. those clinging sounds.. irritated me quite alot... after that went home.. heard that they went for dinner... i din follow.. cos.. i really think that.. i shudn't allow my mood to affect them.. so left early...

im really very moodless now... hais...

im pondering over my subjects.. how well will i score.. i mean.. although the highest wun reflect anything.. but it's a goal that i want to achieve.. i want to achieve my personal best.. okkay... my hopes on my mid course subjects are not really high.. but my desired scores will be...........

GP-C6
Chinese-B4
C Maths- highest in level.. higher than 94 of course.. or equal oso can...
F Maths- A.. a rather convincing A...not a borderline A...
Physics- A would be good.. also a convincing one..
Econs- High C... or a Low B... okk.. this is something i think that it's rather impossible..

okkay.. thats all...

ohh ya.. i just remembered something.. S13 challenged my class to maths.. okkkayy... this is getting more n more competitive.. yah.. challenged my class. so shock when i heard that.. my class will certainly prove to be better than them in maths!! hahas...

EnD~~