-- 4:06 PM; Saturday, April 15, 2006
i've been feeling down lately.. i think people around me can sense it.. =_=

honestly, i'm disappointed with my PW results.. i've never expect that i would score band 3 for my PW. efforts translate to work, but it doesn't reflect here. sigh.

i've been constantly left out by my classmates. indeed, i'm angry inside, and disappointed too. it appears to me that i'm invisible. for that, i don't exist at all. HOWEVER, it seems that i exist when they need help. seriously, i hate associating with my class now.

i do not feel important in my team. i know i am the supporting role, not the lead. on one note, no one train me to spike properly. even if i'm the supporting role, i hope to be trained to be better. but sadly, i wasn't. i don't feel that there's a need for me to play inside. replace me with any J1s, i'm sure they play the same way as i do.

i broke a glass window.. and i do not know what to do.. guilty inside..

sigh.. things have been happening the wrong way.

why must you do this to me!!!