-- 8:05 PM; Wednesday, May 10, 2006
guess what, i'm gonna rant in this entry...

well... i guess, i still feel left out.. so.. what the fuck is wrong with you guys?! i've tried to squeeze myself in, but most superbly, i was like REPELLED from you people!? you know magnets?? REPULSION!? and guess what, i'm non-existent to some f*ckers in class. in fact, i think only ONE.. and it happens to be you. of all people YOU. have you ever been treated like you don't exist at all?! ME, sitting there quietly, looking at you talking but YOU, don't even give a damn to look at me and speak. YOU, who only have HIM in mind.. oh man, thanks.. i guess i will hate you from today onwards. and ya.. THANKS FOR LOOKING DOWN ON ME.. f*cktard..

"luckily never put RAPHAEL to run 400"

what a CASUAL REMARK.. FUCK OFF FUCKER... hmmm.. i guess the repulsion EXISTS when this FUCKER is around.. i'm not used to it yet, and i'm trying my best to get USED TO IT.. so that i don't feel BELONGED to this class.. it's quite pathetic to be in a class of 13 where there are people who are OUTCASTED.. and leaving a group of single digit cliques around.

ya la ya la.. your dear dear still the best LAH... he very kind LAH.. he very nice LAH.. he very talented LAH.. he very (whatever you like to say about him that's so good) LAH.. i'm like a puny little ant as compared to him LAH.. you know absolute advantage?! hmmm.. i think it can be used here... HE has an ABSOLUTE advantage over RAPHAEL.. not only that, HE has comparative advantage over RAPHAEL... so guess what, i'm lousy in everything.. that's what he's trying to say...

please LAH.. be yourself CAN!? you are not yourself at all LAH.. and i can't stand it anymore.. fancy acting cute, trying to capture people's attention, screaming out of nowhere (isn't it attracting attention?!).. in words.. IRRITATING.. perhaps more words... ANNOYING, PAIN IN THE NECK, AGGRAVATING, INCOMMODIOUS...

hey people~ guess what, i'm being left out in class again!!

anyway, i was told that i was direct.. DIRECT.. yep, the personality test we took or something.. i don't think so.. maybe i should start practicing it in class like i did during my sec 4.. whatever i have to say in mind, i will just say.. maybe i will say some things offensive.. but i don't really going to care.. being treated like a non-existent.. THANKS AH!!