-- 11:41 PM; Tuesday, August 15, 2006
everyone had a choice..
to be happy or not to be happy...
and i chose to be happy...
deep down inside..
seroiusly...
i'm not...
it somehow gets to me...
to feel so pessimistic at times like this...
to feel so helpless...
so useless...
to know that i'm so less abled...
i just do not know...
what i should do...
i tried my best in what i do...
but it fails me all the time..
this society is very practical..
they are concerned with results..
and so am i..
i'm very concerned about it...
i'm trying very hard..
i'm going to strive for what i want...

but am i able to do it...

i doubt my abilities...
setbacks after setbacks...
i think it's hard...
i never failed so much in life before...
things had been going on smoothly until this year...

it seems a bad year to me...
i don't want to repeat JC life... i don't want to end up in a poly...
i just want to get it over and done with...
and finally..
on the day of recieving results...
i would want to see 4 As on my result slip.. and a B3 for my GP...
that's what i wanted...
......

eNd